Some days are harder than others to keep going, to keep believing.  The thoughts are harder to shut down, the feelings are impossible to overcome.  Today was one of those days.  One of those days when everything was more real.  The pain that surrounded her was more intense, almost pulsing with its own heartbeat.  My body was so in tune with the universe and with others that I lost myself for a moment.  One moment.  And it all came crashing down.  She finds it hard to describe...and even harder to prove to herself why she should continue to try.